I was talking to a friend the other day about my next year’s schedule, and I realized how busy it would be. Even in comparison to this semester. Mainly, I’m taking on new roles. So I basically said, “Dude I don’t know if I’m overpacking my schedule.” And he’s like, “You just can’t get a girlfriend next year.” I laughed and continued the conversation without thinking about it. The next day, I remembered what he said, and that just led me to explore a million different thoughts. And I got so lost.

I feel like every day there are continuous battles between Logic and Emotion. Logic recognizes the good in certain things that do not seem good at the moment. Emotion recognizes the good in what is present. Logic says that we don’t have much time, so it is wise to invest. Emotion rarely looks into investments. It seizes the current opportunity and refuses to let go. Logic argues that the postponement of temporary satisfaction is the gain of greater satisfaction of the future. Emotion produces excuses by pointing to the risk or futility of investment. Logic is a subtle force, but Emotion is powerful. Because it tastes so good. Oh how I wish I realize that “so good” still pales in comparison.

And I thought back to a message I heard once about how there exists two types of joy. There is the immediate joy and the joy of hope. Immediate joy is like eating cheesecake. The activity is joyful because there is immediate gratification. The joy of hope is the receiving of a check. There is no immediate gratification, because the quality of life has not changed. The joy comes from knowing and trusting that the check will be deposited in the future. When one despairs because of the lack of money, that person can pull the check out of his wallet to reassure himself that all is not lost. There is still hope. I think I need more of that kind of joy.

5:19 – Matt Wertz
She Changes Your Mind – Copeland
Still Fighting It – Ben Folds
Philippians 3:12-21

– Larry